I found an old Poem laying idle on my harddrive and figured it was time to share it with the world.

Life goes on inside my head
For all I know I could be dead
But as I listen to the wind
A voice is reaching from within
Don’t think of love it whispers me
Don’t pick a fight you cannot flee
But as I try I hesitate
I’ve been reluctant as of late
I’ve found that things won’t seem to clear
My desolation wanders near

I need someone to be with me
I need someone to set me free
From thoughts that haunt me night and day
From feelings I can’t keep away
To be a shield against myself
Against the phantoms on my shelf
To be a candle in the haze
A path that leads out of this maze

But who are you that I expect
To save my life in this aspect
And who am I to close my eyes
And wait for angels from the skies
To ask for all you have to give
To tie you down so I can live
A life outside obscurity
And never ever set you free
I should be fighting like a man
I should be tough and make a stand
Defy the weight that burdens me
I ought to love eternally

However I’m no noble knight
And I don’t want to face the night
To live these times of doubt and fear
While shadows keep on coming near
But I must find within my soul
The missing strength and self-control
So I can rest my fears and dread
Discover that there is no thread
Besides my own dependency
And when I do I’ll start to see

That love again will come alive
Not to guard me from what I’ve
Been fighting with along the track
Just to love and love me back
Just to care and be cared for
Just to give for evermore